Tequila

I know
but what the hell
sometimes I just forget I need to eat
yesterday, again
it was exactly 10:00pm
when a barista threatened me
with a venti broom
"we close at 10:00, get out"
and pulled my wifi from a string

"Crap, no wonder I have a headache
I haven't eaten all day"
and there I go to freddy's
for another tv dinner
which I had to shove, just to stay alive
and then, well, the drugs
another percocet for my migraine
and try to get some sleep

No use, it's 4:30am
and I am wide awake
in my bat cave
again

I know it's not depression
stress or indigestion
it's just that....
well, I don't know
maybe I'm just waiting for something to happen
maybe something that never will

I should be packing all my shit
we have to move out in about a week
I need to file for divorce
I must get on with my life

but I can't
so it's just me and Chavela
and a bottle of Patron

No honey, tequila wasn't meant for grapefruit
tequila is sipped, with salt and lime
it is not a reason to party
but rather water to put away the fire
the impatience, the pain
of a love that makes you cry