Oceanis

Stop.
Breathe.
Look around you,
breathe
you're alive....

Darkness falls swiftly,
barefoot feet
leave footprints on the sand.
I walk to the sea
to the cresting waves,
under the moonlight
on this quiet, summer night.

I see the plankton glowing
in green and blue and purple neon
splashed along the bay.

I then surrender the last piece of clothing
and let my soul escape through my lungs
as I float on the swing of the ripple.

The water, warm and deep
surrounds me and keeps me afloat.
Soon I can no longer hear the music
from the lobby of the hotel,
alone, I've come to be.

I stare into the night
and the sea becomes an extension of space
outer space...
I grab a bucket of stars
begin to draw new constellations
like plankton, space is more than night.

I think of Holst
and take a deep breath
as my mortal remains afloat.
Trying to think nothing
trying not to think of Her
losing myself in both immensities
letting go.

As the current drags me farther away
and as this patch of ocean becomes a womb
I spot a red light, glowing
far, far away.

It wanders aimlessly
as I keep track of it
she seems as lonely as I
with my mind I play calling her
and slowly lose any sense of time,
as I repeat my mantra,
over and over again:
"come, come to me"
"come and take me away"

A few falling stars later
and to my surprise
she gets closer
and closer
and stops right above me
as if looking at me
suspended in mid air.

Mars is at its farthest
and satellites travel in orbital vectors
I know this light is neither
and neither are three more that joined it
playfully.

I stare in awe
in total comfort
they are strangely familiar
like an unknown uncle
I'm nervous, and yet, unafraid.

They come closer
spining in circles
dancing in a slow rhythm
floating above my head
as if communicating with me.

I close my eyes
and feel a little shock run through me
then slowly fade away
into a nap, or self inflicted coma
my mind wanders to outer space
as jellyfish pass below me.
I can hear what these lights are saying
and for a moment, I am taken by them
and time suddenly stops.

Soon enough the waves become an orchestra
then I am suddenly back in the Pacific
in Oceanis, in Atlantis
I open my eyes
and wake up
I have arrived
I have been born
born again
I swim
I dive
I take the deepest breath
and as my feet touch the sand
the red lights vanish into the night.

I'm here
wet, naked 
new, erect
I speak three of your languages
and have so much to say and learn
with a certainty deep in my heart
I am from another place
far, far away.